A Deeper Surrender
Dear Blessed One,
Surrender? How? Why? Who will be in charge!?
These were some of the questions that came up for me when well-meaning people would say it to me.
It took many years of life surrendering me (which is what eventually happens as we attempt to control life) before I was able to let go of the reins and allow life to have its way with me.
Surrender allows the most perfect, and situation-appropriate sharing to come through. When surrendered, the wisdom that is now able to flow can be received and enjoyed by all who are listening, including the one delivering it.
I can’t tell you how many times people have quoted me or reminded me of something I said to them and I usually say something like, “Wow, really, I said that?”
Rather than rearranging old thoughts, beliefs, and conditioned ideas of the past, then serving it again, life gets to meet each moment fresh and move unencumbered by the leftovers.
I gave my first book-signing in 2009 where 17 people attended. It might have been the first time in my life that I experienced what I would have defined then as complete surrender.
I walked up to the podium, quite nervous, not having any ideas about how to do it (had never attended a book-signing), and when I read the first paragraph in my book, I silently realized, “This isn’t mine. The book came through me, the book signing came to me, and none of this is mine.” Prior to that I had always arrived prepared for events with manuals, handouts, outlines, etc, and with a projected outcome. This event was organic and had a life of its own. The flow was incredible, the questions were marvelous, the answers were magical, and the feedback was surprising.
Afterwards, people came up to me and said they felt I had listened deeply to their questions, and that they enjoyed when I paused while waiting for the answers to arise rather than just answering from a practiced knowing or preaching to them.
This is life serving life. When we get out of the way, magic happens. Prior to the book-signing, I didn’t know that I could arrive not knowing how to do something, and be totally carried, have it just be done through me.
Since then I’ve discovered that miracles and magic happen all the time as I rest in a deeper surrender. Truly no-thing to do. Complete non-identification with what’s coming through allows me to stay in a state of deep rest and not-knowing, while life itself effortlessly responds to every person and situation I’m presented with.
Much Love and Blessings to You,
“The essential surrender happens within you; it has nothing to do with anybody outside you. The basic surrender is a relaxation, a trust – so don’t be misguided by the word. Linguistically, surrender means to surrender to somebody, but religiously, surrender simply means trust, relaxing. It is an attitude rather than an act: you live through trust.”