Dear Blessed One,
As much as the limited human perspective would often times like to control life, it is not ours to control.
Of course, running slaphazard and disregarding guidance and common sense is not the route to take either.
Realize that life is perfectly designed and the journey is the destination. Each experience is offering an opportunity to deepen your connection with the infinite. As old patterns, wounds, programmed reactions and fears are burned up in the fires of life, more of the true you comes shining through.
I just returned home from a little over three months of travel and working on the road. As one event got canceled, a spontaneous event with a (mostly) new community arose. Miscommunication between the hosts and misunderstandings made my work there and preparation for the upcoming event challenging for me.
I got to see an aspect of ego that I’d not seen in a long time. If I gave it voice it would say something like, “Doesn’t she know who I am?” As I sat with the discomfort of not being received in the way I had become accustomed to, that fragmented aspect of self became uncloaked.
There were times I wanted to cancel and move on but as I sat with it, I could not get a yes to go. I knew there was something for me to see. Hearing the little whispers from the disturbed one was a sign that Consciousness was doing some deeper shedding.
The difference between meeting the occasional fragments now is there is no one judging them as they arise. Ah, this. Recognition. And then there is holding of that conditioned or wounded one, allowing her space to be seen and loved by awareness. As that happens, fragments are integrated and more Consciousness comes online.
Pause when fear arises. Drop into the belly of your being and feel what’s being dislodged. Give it space. Take two or three deep conscious breaths and bring awareness to something in the body (emotion, contraction, pain), anything will do. This is the way to create new pathways for guidance to come through and to derail the run-amuck-mind that believes it knows.
Follow the natural, organic unfolding of Life. The seeming separate self has been programmed to follow other seeming separate selves and their programmed ideas. Unplug. Turn off the TV. Spend more time in nature, dive deep into stillness and allow your authentic self the space to guide you.
Much Love and Blessings to You,
“The heart of the universe pulses in all hearts. There is One who is the life in all forms. There is One who is joyful in simply existing — in all bodies, as all bodies. Explore the life that is the life of your present form. One day you will discover it is not different from the life of the Secret One, and your heart will sing triumphant songs of being at home everywhere.”
~ The Radiance Sutras