A Divine Mosaic
Dear Blessed One,
Holy, holy, holy. Life is so holy. All of it. Every bit.
When I awakened in August of 2008, one of the things I experienced was a life review. In the space of timelessness, I saw my whole life, in chronological order, flash before me. I was weeping; it was beyond beautiful. The whole thing was like a Divine Mosaic.
Every experience in my life, right up to that very moment, was divinely infused and an intricate part of the exquisite whole. In that eternal breath, I was freed from the story of me. All the pain, joy, abuse, love, failure, triumph, and judgment was perfect and absolutely necessary to land me in that pristinely flawless moment. I could see clearly that if one piece were out of place the whole dance, truly life as we knew it, would be changed. That’s how connected we are. Seriously. One move effects the whole.
Though much of the trauma in my life had healed at that point, it became evident to me that there was nothing to forgive. I saw that Life was moving on its own accord, naturally, and that my not being aware of the purpose of the horrible events in my past was part of the recipe for my evolution and eventual awakening.
This is not to condone abusive behavior, only to free oneself from the past, alleviate suffering, unhook from fear, and to bring awareness into the present moment. Resisting a wrong-doing only gives it power (what we resist persists); Jesus knew the truth of that.
Matthew 5:39 says…
But I say unto you, That ye resist not evil: but whosoever shall smite thee on thy right cheek, turn to him the other also.
An incredible musician I know had an experience a couple of weeks ago (the short version): At 4am a total stranger (drunk) walked in off the street into the house where she was staying, and into her bedroom. She was awake with a terrible stomachache, headache, and had herbal caps lodged in her throat causing difficulty swallowing and breathing.
BOOM. The nausea, etc, switched off like a lightswitch in the face of potential crisis. He stood staring at her, then shut the door behind him.
Suddenly her Higher Self jumped into action and she became the hostess with the mostess. She welcomed him, showered him with friendliness and love, and led him to the kitchen for ice cream. She conversed with him about the nature of life and death, and the purpose of life.
After long dialogue she escorted him to the door, gave him a hug and sent him on his way. Just moments before she was having a panic-attack about the fear of dying, and in walked an intruder who, as it turns out, was having the same. Giving him the advice she needed to hear most not only diffused a dangerous situation but also helped him on his path.
Each person comes into our life through the grace of God offering us a gift ~ to heal, to break our hearts wide open, to remember the truth of who we are. When we can drop into the body and feel the feelings that get stirred with each encounter, rather than feeding the frenzy by listening to the story, or adding to the pain body (as Eckhart Tolle calls it), release happens naturally and the original wound dissolves. At this point, growth, expansion, and awakening can occur.
Look for the gift Life is offering you in the moment.
– Is this an opportunity to feel and heal?
– To speak a truth in the face of fear?
– To listen deeply to another?
– To remember the divine perfection of life?
Is forgiveness a viable path? Yes absolutely, until you get to a place of seeing that it’s all holy, part of this sacred dance, and that there’s nothing to forgive.
Much Love and Blessings to You,
“Forgiveness is the fragrance that the violet sheds on the heel that has crushed it.”