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Dark Night of the Soul and Kundalini

Dark Night of the Soul and Kundalini

Dear Blessed One,

Kundalini is the vital energy that we all have within us…our life force. The energy is coiled at the base of the spine waiting (or programmed) to awaken at just the right time. When it awakens, it leads to the union of personal and cosmic consciousness.

Much healing happens in the process as it burns off ego identification. It is usually catalyzed by a personal crisis…mine was. The kundalini awakened in me in 2008.

Prior to the kundalini awakening, my body needed to be prepared. I had no idea that’s what a two-and-a-half-year depression was doing though. In January 2005 I pulled the covers over my head and wanted to die.

I didn’t realize I was healing and in the process of awakening. The beginning of ego dissolution put me in an identity crisis. As I examined, ‘Who am I?’, old wounds came flooding in, beliefs were dissolving and I felt I had nothing solid to stand on. It was a powerful stripping away of identification with the mind-created self, attachments and beliefs.

I began desperately seeking on the outside to find the error and fix what had gone wrong in my life (everything became a potential culprit).

I was feeling alone and didn’t believe anyone understood what I was going through. I lost motivation to do anything and couldn’t find my connection to love, self or divinity.

When you are between who you were and who you are awakening to, that terrain can look extremely bleak. I had not yet landed in the new world and the old one was nowhere to be found!

When in the throes of a chaotic state, remember there’s a beginning, middle and end…you will get through it. It has great purpose, though sometimes it may take a while for clarity to arise.

See if you can find outlets for the powerful energy ripping through you…primal scream, breathe, connect bare feet on the earth, dance, paint, write. Be sure to give yourself a lot of quiet alone time; the body typically aches for solitude as everything is being recalibrated.

Dark night of the soul and kundalini awakening are agents of huge transformation! Allow yourself to dissolve in the cocoon. It can feel like you’re dying. Let yourself die…it’s a dying to the illusory self while awakening to the authentic self.

Awakening is a crazy dance. Notice the space between the steps and remember the song of creation has many melodies. Let go of the mind that is demanding a waltz when a tango is playing. Remember surrender.

You are held and wisdom is guiding the process perfectly. Life constantly dances ecstatically through us.

We’re in a magical time of transformation. Numerous people working with me are having kundalini awakenings, two in the last three weeks via Skype. If you’re looking for support and assistance, I’m happy to be of service to you.

Much Love and Blessings to You,
shellee rae


“…kundalini, has always been symbolized as a serpent. When this creative force is “asleep” in delusion, it flows down and outward and feeds all the senses; uncontrolled, its stinging venom causes insatiable lusts. But when the pure kundalini force is “awakened” by the yogi, it rises to the brain and is transformed into the bliss of Spirit. …the supreme force for human liberation.”
~ Paramahansa Yogananda